69... ash settling on souls

[atouchofstrife]

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We've all been there. Facing death and facing the aftermath of trying to clean up. If I should I could I, so many times I think about what I could have changed is I was a little faster, a little stronger, something, anything and I wonder what I would have lost instead. I've learned that sometimes the Lifestream will take who it will and I cannot stop it. I've learned that I can't always blame myself even when I was covered in the blood of thousands of people - SOLDIERs, infantrymen, citizens, all those people that stood between me and catching Sephiroth and stopping him. All those deaths are on my shoulders yet the ones that hurt worse were the ones closest to me. And when I got sick, those two were the ones I thought I've failed the most.

I didn't. They gave me so much strength and I never knew until I stood facing him again. His legacy - heh, the legacy of a madman, a country SOLDIER and a monster. How many pieces of them are a part of me now?

I'm - I just need to stop this thinking too much. And I need to get Zack to smile again. I'm tired of seeing him like this.
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Thanks for coming with me, Tifa. I hope you enjoyed the ride.

Vincent, any better?

Zack, need a Potion?

Anyone want to spar?

Comments

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

.... I'd say yes to a spar, but I'm thinking it's a bad idea right now.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Anita... he sighs softly Is there anything I can do for you?

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Hey, it's not what you're thinking. I'm not like that tonight.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Oh?

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Did you honestly think I'd only talk to you for something like that, Cloud?

How shallow you make me seem.

I had a rough day yesterday and dreamed dreams last night. I'm just tired. Nothing more. You're whoop my ass today.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Sorry. My mind's on what the others were saying yesterday.

I didn't mean it.

Sleep's something I gave up on a long time ago.

Post # = BOW CHICKA BOW WOW.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Just a few gallons of water, maybe.

I'm fine. I'll be back later tonight. You can punch me then.

shush don't scare away people that don't know~

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I can dump it over your head.

Huh. I am not going to hit you.

:3 Hey, it might attract people, bb.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

...I'm hung over, I mean.

If you did, I wouldn't blame you.

cloud needs friends that aren't kicked puppies?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Cold water helps. Believe me.

You fustrate me, Zack. And it hurts when you talk like you didn't do anything.

Uhhhh. Angeal's apparently a Clydesdale?

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's an old friend. S'been a while, though.

How does it-- Well. First, what's wrong with wanting to do as much as I can?

really? wow

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I can imagine.

Nothing. It's only wrong to think that you've failed what you did do.

[dirgingcerberus.livejournal.com]

I'm doing much better, Cloud, thank you.

I'm up for a romp, if you're interested.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear it.

I am.

[dirgingcerberus.livejournal.com]

Should we lay down some rules?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Mm.

No materia?

[dirgingcerberus.livejournal.com]

Agreed. I'll only load one cylinder on the Cerberus.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Mm. That'll work.

I'll only use one sword.

| voice |

[itachi-kunoichi.livejournal.com]

I don't mind sparring with you!

| voice |

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...What kind of weapon do you favor?

| voice |

[itachi-kunoichi.livejournal.com]

MY BODY IS MY WEAPON!

Plus I've got my kunai!

| voice |

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Hand-to-hand, huh?

Ever fight against a Buster-class Sword?

| voice | 1/2 |

[itachi-kunoichi.livejournal.com]

Ya don't need to fight me hand-to-hand. I can spar with you even if you're using a weapon, right?

| voice |

[itachi-kunoichi.livejournal.com]

Uh, what's that?

| voice |

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

That's right, I can.

A very big sword.