69... ash settling on souls

[atouchofstrife]

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We've all been there. Facing death and facing the aftermath of trying to clean up. If I should I could I, so many times I think about what I could have changed is I was a little faster, a little stronger, something, anything and I wonder what I would have lost instead. I've learned that sometimes the Lifestream will take who it will and I cannot stop it. I've learned that I can't always blame myself even when I was covered in the blood of thousands of people - SOLDIERs, infantrymen, citizens, all those people that stood between me and catching Sephiroth and stopping him. All those deaths are on my shoulders yet the ones that hurt worse were the ones closest to me. And when I got sick, those two were the ones I thought I've failed the most.

I didn't. They gave me so much strength and I never knew until I stood facing him again. His legacy - heh, the legacy of a madman, a country SOLDIER and a monster. How many pieces of them are a part of me now?

I'm - I just need to stop this thinking too much. And I need to get Zack to smile again. I'm tired of seeing him like this.
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Thanks for coming with me, Tifa. I hope you enjoyed the ride.

Vincent, any better?

Zack, need a Potion?

Anyone want to spar?

Comments

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

.... I'd say yes to a spar, but I'm thinking it's a bad idea right now.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Anita... he sighs softly Is there anything I can do for you?

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Hey, it's not what you're thinking. I'm not like that tonight.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Oh?

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Did you honestly think I'd only talk to you for something like that, Cloud?

How shallow you make me seem.

I had a rough day yesterday and dreamed dreams last night. I'm just tired. Nothing more. You're whoop my ass today.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Sorry. My mind's on what the others were saying yesterday.

I didn't mean it.

Sleep's something I gave up on a long time ago.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Mmm. Yeah.

I needed it last night or I would've just stayed up. Went Underground to vent so I was kinda tired.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I took a drive to work it off. Zack... I didn't want to be around him. I might have hurt him.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

I don't think you would've.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I wanted to shake him until that fell out of his head.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

His skull is hard enough to handle it. Doubt it would've hurt him any.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

They say the same about me.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Is that such a bad thing?

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

All depends on how hard the wall is when you hit it.

Re: voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Screw the wall. It'll break every time.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Mm. They don't make them like they used to.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

And they never will again.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Guess they must like their repair bills then.

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

They must.