52... this is better

[atouchofstrife]

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I wonder what she would say if she comes here? Would she happy that I'm happy or would she become upset? I... found someone I like being with. Two someones. I just don't know where things where going with her back home. She's been there for me even when I couldn't see that she was, and yet here I am with two other people. I promised to be there for her as well, but I can't while I'm here. I hope she will be alright though. I know she is far stronger than I am.

I hope she stays home. I don't want any of my selfishness to drag her anywhere near this place.

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Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you're forgotten by people you know? Would you want it to happen?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

So they keep on telling me.

...I'm fine. I guess.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

You guess?

That's confusing.

Why did you.. ask such a question, if I can inquire?

I want my father and Osugi-san to forget me because I don't want them to remember.. or care. Hard to explain..

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It depends on how you look at it.

I've been here for about five months. There are people back home that I don't want to miss me.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Because.. you don't want them to worry, and be upset and possibly think you didn't like them anymore?

That is somewhat how I feel about my friends in Bei-Jia. I don't want them to worry or be upset and think I abandoned them. But I wouldn't want them to forget.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

Oh?

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Why would you want to be forgotten?

You seem like a nice man, sir. I can't see how or why they would forget you.

Maybe I'm speaking more boldly than I should, but that's what I think.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

They shouldn't have to miss me.

It's okay. Really.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

It's really their decision, though..

[Soft sigh]

What's your name, by the way? I'm Takiko.

And that isn't all right! They shouldn't have to forget you. You can't forget them, right? You have good memories to outweigh or at least counterbalance any bad.. so hang onto them.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It's Cloud.

...I suppose. Good memories can be nice to have.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Nice to meet you!

Well of course they are, silly. Without those, life would be dull and awful.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

Memories are fickle things.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Memories help make us who we are.

Which is why forgetting someone might be like forgetting a part of yourself.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...

It might depend on where the memories come from.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

I don't know what you mean by that.

You seem a bit down, is there anything I can do?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Can you reverse time?

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Not personally, no.

I wish I could, though.

I can summon a God, but.. I don't know if he'd do that.

I don't know if he could even bring back my mother..

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't know if one would. None of the ones I've heard of on Gaia were able to.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Gaia?

Forgive me for asking, but you've lost someone, haven't you?

I could.. well I could tell.

My mother died not too long ago. I understand, just a little.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

My home world.

...Several someones.

Huh. That can be hard.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

It sounds pretty. Is it?

That's awful. But would they want you to be so sad?

It is very hard. I miss her more than anything.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It is now.

Probably not.

Maybe she will come here.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Is it warm or cold there?

Then, you should try and cheer up a little! Just a little.

W-What?! I..

...

[She sighs]

I'm not sure.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It depends on where you live. I grew up in the mountains where it was cold most of the year, but I have a couple friends that grew up in the warm plains.

This is cheerful for me.

A friend that died on me a few years back is here. It can be... difficult.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

I see! It varies in Japan, too. More recently we moved up to the mountains so my mother could breather easier. And it's colder.

I don't think you're smiling over there, are you?

I think I've met him. He's very nice. It is. But th emore I meet people here, the more I think my mother might want me to be happy! And not be sad about something we couldn't help.

What do you think?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't usually smile. It breaks my face.

Zack? Yeah. He is.

I think if I mope about too much he'll try smacking me with his sword and that would leave a bruise.