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[atouchofstrife]

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I wonder what she would say if she comes here? Would she happy that I'm happy or would she become upset? I... found someone I like being with. Two someones. I just don't know where things where going with her back home. She's been there for me even when I couldn't see that she was, and yet here I am with two other people. I promised to be there for her as well, but I can't while I'm here. I hope she will be alright though. I know she is far stronger than I am.

I hope she stays home. I don't want any of my selfishness to drag her anywhere near this place.

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Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you're forgotten by people you know? Would you want it to happen?

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[baixin.livejournal.com]

Gaia?

Forgive me for asking, but you've lost someone, haven't you?

I could.. well I could tell.

My mother died not too long ago. I understand, just a little.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

My home world.

...Several someones.

Huh. That can be hard.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

It sounds pretty. Is it?

That's awful. But would they want you to be so sad?

It is very hard. I miss her more than anything.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It is now.

Probably not.

Maybe she will come here.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Is it warm or cold there?

Then, you should try and cheer up a little! Just a little.

W-What?! I..

...

[She sighs]

I'm not sure.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It depends on where you live. I grew up in the mountains where it was cold most of the year, but I have a couple friends that grew up in the warm plains.

This is cheerful for me.

A friend that died on me a few years back is here. It can be... difficult.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

I see! It varies in Japan, too. More recently we moved up to the mountains so my mother could breather easier. And it's colder.

I don't think you're smiling over there, are you?

I think I've met him. He's very nice. It is. But th emore I meet people here, the more I think my mother might want me to be happy! And not be sad about something we couldn't help.

What do you think?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't usually smile. It breaks my face.

Zack? Yeah. He is.

I think if I mope about too much he'll try smacking me with his sword and that would leave a bruise.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Don't be silly.

That's him! Very nice.

Well then you should try and ..smile? He would approve of that, I think seeing how upbeat he is!

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It's an old joke.

I heard that he's going to dress up as a bear for Halloween.

He talks about it sometimes.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

I've never heard it. And I'm probably from too far back in time to get it.

You mean one of those adorable looking ones American children adore so much, right? He doesn't seem the ferocious type..

Well then you should try!

Just try. If you can't do it then, at least you tried.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Sorry. It's an old joke concerning me.

I think so. I wouldn't know exactly what his roommate keeps on babbling about.

Don't worry. I do.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

No, no it's allright! What's it mean?

Hm.. well. He doesn't remind me of a bear at all. He's too nice. Much too nice.

Good!

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't usually smile that much so my friends used to joke that the reason was because my face would break and I didn't have any glue handy.

He is nice.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

Well that is silly. I bet you can! Smile, that is.

Yes. So are you, you know.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

For a while I didn't have a reason to smile.

...Thanks.

[baixin.livejournal.com]

I see.

You're welcome.