58... stuck in the middle

[atouchofstrife]

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Do I miss them? Yes. But I am not going to think about it. It's better this way, I know it. He's got friends here now and she doesn't remember much at all. And I have friends here - I have Aerith and Zack and I've met the person that taught Zack. He's also 1st Class and I never imagined how different he is from Zack. Although it is weird, to meet someone that I've heard about who is older than me and yet it the same age as me here now. I'm not sure if I like that feeling.

But I think something's off. I'm not sure what yet, but there's something odd going on now that Angeal's here. I sometimes think that they're trying to keep me happy which is just off. Huh. We'll see.

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More SOLDIERs, huh? Next, they'll drag in Turks, Rufus and a few chocobos. Not that I'd mind the chocobos. I miss racing them.

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[Private] I know cloud is just being dramatic

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

Think Angeal is gonna drag him here?

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

...I don't know.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Damn.

He'll notice that I'm not just an infantryman right away.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

He's seen you before, anyway, even if you don't remember it.

Then again, he might not have cared to really notice what you looked like.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

That was what I was thinking. But here and now? Glowing Mako eyes are not that common.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

.......Yeah, they aren't.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Zack.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I haven't told Angeal about Nibelheim.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Are you going to?

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I'm probably going to have to.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He might have figured some of it out. I don't claim to be SOLDIER even when Reno calls me one.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

He hasn't brought it up, so I don't know.

Telling him about Sephiroth is going to be hard. I don't know if Genesis will say anything about him or not, but it's going to come up some time.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He might be waiting to ask.

Sephiroth... You can shift some of the news to me. I was the one to fight him last.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

You know how I'm a procrastinator.

...I meant Genesis making him go insane.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I know.

And I meant if he has more questions after you tell him.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I thought you didn't like talking about all of that.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't.

But... he should know anyways.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Well, if you're really comfortable with it.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Comfort has nothing to do with it.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

It has everything to do with it! You don't need to force yourself to bring up that kind of thing if you don't want to.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I won't have to bring it up if he asks about what happened after! I told him I did the job and buried the sword, so he'll probably will want to know what job I did.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

...What'd he say about the sword?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Nothing.

Don't change the subject.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Then I won't. What else do you have to say?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It happened. I can't undo what had happened, and neither can you. Stop trying to live for a time when you couldn't.