58... stuck in the middle

[atouchofstrife]

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Do I miss them? Yes. But I am not going to think about it. It's better this way, I know it. He's got friends here now and she doesn't remember much at all. And I have friends here - I have Aerith and Zack and I've met the person that taught Zack. He's also 1st Class and I never imagined how different he is from Zack. Although it is weird, to meet someone that I've heard about who is older than me and yet it the same age as me here now. I'm not sure if I like that feeling.

But I think something's off. I'm not sure what yet, but there's something odd going on now that Angeal's here. I sometimes think that they're trying to keep me happy which is just off. Huh. We'll see.

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More SOLDIERs, huh? Next, they'll drag in Turks, Rufus and a few chocobos. Not that I'd mind the chocobos. I miss racing them.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Live for now.

Someone wise told me that one.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

If certain things are said, that won't be easy.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Do you trust him?

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Who?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Angeal. Do you trust him?

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

......


I don't know if I trust him to trust himself. That's all.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Then let's take it step by step and not act like everything's falling apart.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

That's the thing. One well-aimed poke, and the entire thing will fall apart.

Angeal made me kill him because he was convinced he was a monster. Being here doesn't change anything about that. If he still thinks he is, then--

I don't want to add to that by making him think about what happened to me after it. He'd blame himself.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Then you'll have to prove to himn he's not a monster.

None of us are even if we aren't human any more.

It's not his fault. It's not my fault. If anyone is to blame it is ShinRa.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I know that, Cloud. I know that.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

But does he?

Sorry. I just don't want you to lose him again.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

No. I have to figure out how to deal with it. At the moment, avoiding it and... doing the usual, is the only way I can.

...Thanks.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I don't think that option will work for very much longer.

Just... don't do something completely stupid.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Is that a "do" or "act", Cloud?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

You know what I mean, Zack.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

As long as I have your word on it.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

On this.

I'll still smack you if you touch Fenrir.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Right, right.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

But you might get your own bike. It'll take a while.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

...Will you make up your mind?

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I asked Reeve to design you one. It'll be better than me building one. The parts will take some time to find, that's all.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I meant trying to talk to me seriously and then distracting me with shiny things, but.

My love for you knows no bounds, man.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I figured that the serious talk is over now, but.

I know, I know. It's all but love between us.

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Hmm, I guess it is.

You're acting strange.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Strange?