51... thinking out loud

[atouchofstrife]

suppose to be private\\very hackable

It's amazing how much a little thing sets me off. Sometimes, it's just a thought or a word, other times it feels like I am strangling in my own head. I guess that some things never truly change even though I know I have grown different from when I'm a kid. It's strange.

It feels weird, not to do that any more. But it's okay. I don't like using them anyways.

I think I talked better with him than I do with Zack. Maybe because he was there. Maybe.

I wonder how Tifa's doing. I miss her. I miss the kids. I need to keep busy though.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"If he wants his time tomorrow with me, he better be gone."

He nodded, resting his hands on her hips and tugging her close.

"I'm feeling very selfish tonight."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

"I'm sure he's gone. He said he would be. Besides, if he wanted to stay and watch, he would've said so."

She settles close enough that little water could get between them.

"How so?"

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"True. He isn't one to stay quiet."

He brushed his lips against hers, teasing just a little as he answers her.

"Been wanting to be home alone with you."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

"We'd hear him comment on our form or something like that."

The soft kiss is matched and she leans in for another one, deeper this time.

"I'm glad to know that. I was worried I scared you off the other night."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"Muttering tips or even trying to hog the action."

He chuckled at the image, and kissed her again, tracing her lips with his tongue.

"No, you didn't."

Cloud kissed her hard.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

"He'd call them 'practical demonstrations'."

There isn't even a hum before her arms tighten and she steps back, settling her back against the cool tile wall. She's always been a fan of being between two hard places, after all.

She breaks the kiss for a quick breath.

"Fuck, you're good at that."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"I don't think we need them."

He moved with her, pressing her against the wall, his hand smoving down along her hips and stroking up again. He smiled slowly, rubbing his nose against hers.

"Guess I've learnt a lot."

Cloud brushed his lips over hers before kissing her neck and giving her the lightest of nips.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Skin prickles under his lips, making her laugh a little breathlessly.

"You've been paying attention in class, lover. I like it."

Her hands aren't idle. No, they're tracing along the muscles in his arms and shoulders, nails dragging in spots.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"Even pretend SOLDIERs can learn a few new tricks."

That truth didn't hurt, not here when he can lick her skin stretched over her collarbones, and run his fingers over her ribs. Cloud sucked in his breath, the glow in his eyes darkening.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

She squirms against him, caught between a laugh and a moan when his fingers find a ticklish spot. Her fingers tighten on his shoulders, then one hand finds the back of his head as she tips her head back against the wall.

"Only if they're as smart and talented as you are."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Even the water was having a hard time making his spikes droop as he pressed soft kisses along her breast bone and lazily- like an after thought - pressed a soft kiss along the curve of hr breasts.

"I think some would beg to differ."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

"Not thinking I care what they think. I'm happy with what I've got."

Both hands were threaded into his hair now, fingers trembling as her heartbeat started to speed up. Without thinking, she slid her leg against his.

"Very happy."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"Mm, good."

He smiles against her skin, his left hand moving down, resting on the curve of her ass. He slowly licked both of her nipples, pressing his hardness against her.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Her hands clenched in his hair as she panted out his name into the steamy air. The leg hitched higher, settling along his hip. Flexibility is a good thing, after all.

"... now who's the tease, Cloud?"

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"I can't enjoy?"

He blew on her skin and chuckled, raising his head to kiss her. Keeping a grip on her leg, it took him a shift of his hips and a little wiggle to enter her, a soft groan escaping his lips.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

His groan is met with one of her own as she rolls her hips closer.

"Oh God, yes you can enjoy. Lots. Lestat can take a long walk."

Her hands grasps at his shoulders, needing something to hold tight to.

"You feel so goooood."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"Maybe he'll... get lost?"

He had to wait for moment, just enjoying the feel of her around him and against him, shifting his grip on her hip and leg. Then kissing her softly, he started to move, drawing out each roll of his hip.

"Mm... yeah. So do you..."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

The kiss is given back just as gently, a soft whimper escaping when he starts to move. Her hips find and follow his careful pace, letting her rise and fall a little along the slick wall with each motion.

With a pleased murmur, she leans in and nips at his lips.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He gasps softly, his lips parting and his tongue just touching her lips. Cloud's eyes were a dark glowing sapphire, his cheeks flushing from the shower's heat and that growing between them. His grew faster but no less gentle.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

As he speeds up, so does she, eager to keep with his rhythm. Both hands move to cup his cheeks as she finds herself unable to tear her eyes away from his.

"... so beautiful."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He whimpered, his eyes staying on hers, and he leaned into his movements.

"So... are you." Cloud whispered the words, resting his forehead against hers. "Anita..."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

"Oh God..."

The whimper made her tremble with the knowledge of why Lestat finds it so appealing. That sweet burn was starting just under her skin, letting her know it wouldn't be much longer.

"Cloud... Please." The last word was a ragged groan.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He bit his lip, his eyes closing as he shivered and lost more of his control, shifting with each thrust. Cloud whimpered again, his seyes opening and his hands pulling her hard against him, his movements growing hard and fast.

"Anything... Anita..."

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

She was writhing against the wall with each thrust, head tilted back, her eyes open but hazy. His hands on her were going to leave bruises, but she didn't care, nor would she tomorrow. Each motion of his body was met with a sound from her; groans and every now and then, a shaky whimper of her own.

"... so close... oh God.."

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

"Show me..."

Cloud leaned down, taking a deep shaky breath and nipped her shoulder harder than normal. His pace was losing all forms of rhythm, instead he was moving just to feel her heat tighten around him, and the tightening of his balls.

"...lover."