On the Edge of nothing

Maybe I've been here too long, but it's getting to the point where I just want to get on my bike and ride out as far as I can. Or kill monsters.

I guess this place is really Hell like mother spoke about. I can't imagine anything worse then this stupidity happening all the time. Over and over, people kill each other. Over and over they come back. I don't understand the point anymore.

...I've got an urge for ice cream.

...I was told he died. No one knew who he was, and mother said he went into the mountains and never came back. So why now? Why am I thinking about it now? Maybe it will go away if I stop thinking about it. Maybe I won't see him when I turn around again.

Thanks for coming, everyone. The snowball fight was fun, especially with the chocobos getting involved.

...The only thing I can think of saying is that they should've let women into the program.

And thanks, Tseng. He's now answering only to Veld.

So they did it. Imagine that. I guess that if we had this kind of talent back home, the stigma wouldn't get so far. Let's start with those affected the worse and go from there.

...This makes it what? A nice round hundred times I nearly died? Let's see... there's the reactor, the mountain bridge, the reactor, the mansion, the barracks, that one mission with Zack, that other time with that scientist, hmm... Loz and Yazoo almost got me - right in the heart, yet here I am.

You'd think that someone would get lucky and kill me the right way. Then again, Aerith keeps on kicking me back out of the Lifestream. Maybe she doesn't like being called 'Mother'.


[ooc; Death and all his friends curse from the grab bag. Cloud so has it, and yes, anyone working on the geostigma cure can post here to talk or whatever.]

That's it. I'm leaving.


[ooc; 4th wall is a go, Cloud's just going to be bitchy about it]

...First I'm covered in blood, now this. Maybe it would be a good idea to stay in bed today.

...Great. I feel like I've been dressed in my father's clothing. I'm drowning. Even the boots are too big. Feels familiar though. Even smells the same.

I hope this ends soon. It's hard sleeping in all this stuff.

My father... I never knew him. Mom said I have his hair, and that I had his smile. I didn't like smiling even then because I knew it hurt her. Sometimes, she wouldn't even see me, but him.

ShinRa killed him. They said he went missing in the mountains, that one of the dragons probably got him, but he was a Strife. We were all Strife. We knew the ways.

I never listened to them when I should have. I don't remember all the ways.

...Huh. Curse day?

...Why? Zack... you idiot.

Stay inside and don't look for me. I'm going after him. Reno, Cissnei, who else is out there sick now? I'm next. I can feel it.

Don't go looking for me.

[ voice ]

...Right. At least getting pounced on by a cat doesn't hurt too much. Same for getting dragged across the floor.

...Can someone keep Levi from dragging me around by my ear?