52... this is better

[atouchofstrife]

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I wonder what she would say if she comes here? Would she happy that I'm happy or would she become upset? I... found someone I like being with. Two someones. I just don't know where things where going with her back home. She's been there for me even when I couldn't see that she was, and yet here I am with two other people. I promised to be there for her as well, but I can't while I'm here. I hope she will be alright though. I know she is far stronger than I am.

I hope she stays home. I don't want any of my selfishness to drag her anywhere near this place.

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Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you're forgotten by people you know? Would you want it to happen?

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[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Well, that's quite the question.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Actually two.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I've got another, to make it three.

What's got you wondering?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

A promise.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I think I remember you telling me not to worry about this.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

You're dead. I think worrying is beyond you now.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

It wasn't beyond me before?

And hey, she's dead, I'm dead. Same plane of existence.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...

I don't know anymore. My head's messed up.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

That's what happens when you think too much.

Though I hear there's some curse going around today. It's pretty subtle, though.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I'm not cursed.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

So why this, all of a sudden?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I've been here for five months.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Don't you go back to the same time you left?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

But would I be the same person when I go back?

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

That's a good question. Do people that go home and come back remember this place when they're at home?

strikes = thoughts

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I wish I knew. Because then I would know and not have to feel guilty now.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Maybe you should ask around? It's better than worrying.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Everyone says something different.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Then there's no use worrying.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...You really don't know them that well do you?

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

That has nothing to do with it.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

How do you know?

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

You can't worry about what's going to happen when you don't even know if it can happen.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I do all the time, Zack.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

And that's why you're going to be all wrinkly when you're thirty.