89... we all fall down

[atouchofstrife]

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[The picture's fuzzy and there's a very large black cat peering at the camera, followed by a paw that taps lightly on the screen. A low moan is heard and the cat disappears from view, letting people see the dark room, the messy disorder of papers and service notices. There's a groan and spikey blond hair appears, followed by dazed Mako blue eyes set in a too pale face. The blond scratches at his head, frowning, looking away from the camera, and then his eyes widen and his hand grabs at his hair.]

Shit... no. Fuck... what was I...

[Eyes closed, he makes a sharp high pitched whine, like rusted gears trying to move.]

nonononononoNO!

[Again there is a cat in the way, and the phone gets knocked off the dresser - showing a half open steel chest with a few glowing spheres - and then it goes off.]

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[ooc; Action for anyone in the house, voice for anyone else checking in on him. And yes, he is not going to be in a good mood.]

Comments

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Lestat.

[lyra-of-dust.livejournal.com]

Cloud- Cloud! It's...

It's going to be all right!

voice

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Of course, Cloud.

I knew you would have wanted to be stopped before you did one more thing you would later regret.

[Action]

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

[Minuit crept out and looked at him before creeping over and bumping her head against his hand. Cloud kept his gaze down, frowning a little. If he was honest with himself, he would admit that it wasn't shock at Zack's death by his hand - it was letting himself get so caught up in killing people for something they couldn't help. He didn't like going back to the mindless actions of a puppet.]

...It would have. I'm sorry too.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...I did enough.

I owe a lot of people a lot of appologies.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Heh. Maybe later on.

voice

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Then apologize.

You were infected and that changed you. It was the same for many others.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...I will.

I should have been able to control myself. Not the first time...


[ooc; Yes, Lestat you can read the strikes if you really want]

[Action]

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

[Zack shifted a little, uncomfortable, and scratched under Minuit's chin.]

You don't have anything to apologize for. To me, at least.

voice

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Tell me about the first time.

[ooc: Give him permission and he jumps all over it.]

voice

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

... come find me if you want company or something. No talking needed.

| voice |

[itachi-kunoichi.livejournal.com]

You okay?

voice

[urbandev.livejournal.com]

I take it you're back.

| voice |

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...

Ask me that in a couple of days.

[Action]

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

[Poor little kitty keeps on jumping at the slightest sound. Cloud gripped his covers and then just threw them aside, half stumbling, half falling out of the bed.]

Still... [He stopped from actually crossing the room, instead sitting on the floor opposite of Zack.] Some SOLDIER I turn out to be.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Alright.

Thanks.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Looks like it.

voice

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...I was a puppet.

[Action]

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't have wanted to see you go down that dead end.

[Action]

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

It's the only reason I went to Midgar.

[Action]

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

[Zack grew quiet, trying to fumble with his kid gloves, and suddenly wondered why the hell he should bother. He laughed, instead. A dark and bitter sound.]

The real thing never really lives up to the ideals and dreams that precede it.

[Action]

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

[Cloud's mouth twisted. He knows that now, but he always thought that there was always something good about gaining the respect and skills of a good SOLDIER.]

It could have been something more. But I was never stupid to think that it didn't mean 'loyal attack dog of stupid rich people'.

[Action]

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

You were a lot less misguided than I was, then.

[Action]

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I wanted to be strong. I wanted to be able to protect people. I wanted to be like Sephiroth.

[Cloud drew his legs up and wrapped his arms around them, resting his chin on his knees. His lips twitched in a dark smile.]

Guess some of it came true.