45... okay that was interesting

[atouchofstrife]

Zack. Ready?


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So. Anita died. It's weird and I don't know what to do about it. I want to kill the bitch that hurt her and... I haven't felt that way for a long time. I'm glad I took a drive instead. I don't think they would have liked it if I ended up dying too.

Also, I'm not sure what this is suppose to mean... but I tried it anyways.

1. tiger - The tiger represents pride. While the tiger is beautiful and necessary and a thing of great worth in this world, it is best to keep tigers in the jungle and away from our day-to-day life. Otherwise, our poor cow and pig could be in danger.

horse - The horse represents family, your nuclear family as well as your extended family, cousins, and other kin. The horse helps to carry your weight, serves to move you forward, is a companion who goes with you wherever you need to be.

cow - The cow represents vocation; what you do in life, your occupation, career, job, where you want to be or what you want to accomplish, your goals, your ideals or foundations. We will call the cow 'ideals,' in fact. The cow or buffalo or ox, as some of you might know, is an animal held loftily by many cultures from my world.

sheep - The sheep represents love-- not just romantic love, but also self-love, love of family and friends, love for life. Gentle or passionate feelings, obligation to others. A sheep is a fairly harmless and defenseless thing, you realize. It needs to be protected and treated kindly for it to be useful.

pig - The pig represents material wealth and gain. Money, home, land, clothing, all those nice things in life. Pigs are a lucky thing, and not just lucky, but something wonderful. They represent plenty, nourishment, having our piece of the proverbial fat of the land. Oh, to be the pig.


2.
dog -trusting :: The dog represents how we view ourselves. It is just one word, not a complete picture. More of a snapshot-- one fleeting feeling in one single moment of time, the present. It could be how we consciously see ourselves or how we subconsciously see ourselves.

cat -warmth :: The cat represents one of the qualities that we see in the people who we surround ourselves with-- our friends, acquaintances, lovers and partners.

coffee -energy :: The coffee or tea represents romance to a lesser degree, and to a stronger degree, how we feel about or approach sex and sexual relationships.

ocean -life :: The ocean represents our life. It could be the past, the present, the future. What we are looking for, what we have, what we feel gives us the security that we long for or the answers that we need.

rat -secrets :: The rat represents our enemies. Those who we hate or who we feel work against us.

3. yellow -zack :: Yellow is the color of the saffron of a priest's robes. It represents in this situation a person whom we are guided by or who greatly influences our lives, typically for the better but not in all cases.

orange -yuffie :: Orange is the color of a sunrise. It represents in this situation a person whom you are curious about, who you wish to learn more about. Someone perhaps that you think that you could get along with in this or another situation. Maybe another lifetime.

red -vincent :: Red is the color of agni, fire. It is the most intense color and has the longest wavelength and can thus be seen the farthest (that is why the 'stop' light is red). It represents a person whom you feel passion for, whether or not that passion has laid itself bare. Not necessarily romantic or sexual passion-- one could feel a passionate friendship or a passionate hatred as well.

white -sephiroth :: White is essentially the color of nothing and of everything. White repels and reflects. This is why in my country and in most of the eastern countries, we wear white at a funeral. This is to tell the world that this person who has died is no longer an active participant. That the mourners repel the outside world, all that they have left of the deceased, it is within them. For the purposes of this exercise, white represents someone who you see yourself in-- who reflects parts of you.

green -aerith :: Green is the color of consciousness. The person that you identify with green is someone who is on your thoughts. Someone who you think about frequently, who you would find hard to forget. It can be for a good reason-- perhaps someone who changed your life for the better. It can be for very bad reasons, as well-- the green-eyed monster, perhaps?
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Comments

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Seventh Heaven? Yeah. I was a lot more energetic back before Modeoheim, too.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Tifa's bar. AVALANCHE used it for HQ until after Meteor Fall and then we rebuilt it for a place to hang out togther.

You were.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

[So the carpenter decided to use his name suggestion after all.]

Shit happened, I guess. Angeal was my mentor and one of my closest friends during my two years as a 2nd. He made me fight him on that mission, after I'd dealt with Genesis.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Like you were to me. That... must have hurt.

[Cloud had to fight Sephiroth several times and while Sephiroth wasn't Zack, the former General had been someone special and important to Cloud's decisions. He knew what it felt like even though he also knew that by that point in time, fighting his childhood idol had to be done.]

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

I kinda think I might punch him, too, if I ever see him again. The real him, I mean.

Lazard ended up losing himself and became an Angeal copy, and that flying wolf monster was one, too. Four years. He looked after Aerith for four years, and then when we were in Banora, they both fought off Shinra soldiers to protect you.

[Zack dug in his pocket, pulling out a folded piece of paper.]

Lazard wanted to help me, so he tracked us down. The other copy came so he could deliver this.

After I faced Genesis, they both dissolved and returned to the Lifestream.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Oh.

[He looked down at the crumpled bit of paper, his eyes widening at the hadwriting and then looked up at Zack.]

She talked about you. During the date we had.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

What did she say?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...How much she missed you and that she hoped to see you again.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

[Zack laughed, a light sound that, this time, was completely genuine.]

Well, who knows. Maybe she'll turn up here. She'd probably like to see you again, too.

She's another person I have to apologize to. So many broken promises.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Did I tell you I talked to you? I used to see you and her through the Lifestream once and a while.

So... I'm sure you two talked it all over there.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but that was a me that was dead for all that time. His conscience might be clear, but mine isn't.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...I'm not drunk enough for that kind of headach, Zack.

[Cloud cracked a smile and leaned back again.]

You did pass your legacy to me, right? So... maybe I kept those promises for you.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

See, the headache is caused by the drinking.

...And I was supposed to fix a broken wheel on one of the flower wagons. Kunsel said he tried to help her but she wanted me to do it.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I had one beer, Zack.

She was using a basket and she really didn't need the wagon by the time we left Midgar.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

And you already told me you can't hold your liquor.

True, true, but a promise was a promise.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

One beer does not equal the amount you usually drink, Zack.

Yeah... a promise is a promise. But sometimes, you just can't keep them all.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Exactly! You can't hold it like I can.

...Yeah, I guess that's true. You made it, though, and I'm happy for that.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

But I am not completely slooshed by just one beer.

Through sheer dumb luck and a lot of stubbornness.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

So you say~

And really, I think it was stubbornness and gall.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I do.

Don't forget the temper. Every time Sephiroth had me pinned and started gloating about killing people I know, I just lost it and went berserk on him.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

After he went nuts, I think Sephiroth pissed everyone off.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure how conscious you were that one time, but he had ran me through with his sword and all I did was laughed, grabbed onto the blade and pulled myself up it to get at him again.

I think it freaked him out since he ran after that.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

[Zack snickered.]

I was conscious. He didn't run, Cloud. He fell into the pit in Jenova's chamber because you threw him against the wall.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Like that would have stopped him on a normal day and you know it.

[plz-2-b-an-hero.livejournal.com]

Even if I wore him down a little, you must have done something else to him.