33... memories

[atouchofstrife]

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...No.

I'm going for a drive.


[ooc; The video is subbed and comes from the PSP game 'Crisis Core', but this is how Cloud remembers the death of his friend Zack. Zack fought a bunch of people trying to protect a comatose Cloud and he's always felt guilty about it. He won't enjoy anyone picking at him about this memory and he is going to be very touchy towards all. Roomies, have fun.]

Comments

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Sorry. Just... need to work it off.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

No need to be sorry.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Yeah, well, I am.

[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

I killed him, Anita. I may not have held the gun, but it was me all the same. Whatever I do now isn't going to make up the fact that he didn't get to live.

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[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

No you didn't.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He died protecting me and I couldn't even remember him for two years. I killed him.

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[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

That's bullshit and you know it. He died because he wanted to protect you. You didn't force him to. He cared enough to want to make sure you made it.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

He shouldn't have done it. He had a lot waiting for him.

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[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

It wasn't your call to make. It was his. You don't respect his decision?

.... so do you.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Respect? I don't understand why.

I kill everyone I get close to.

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[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

It isn't your place to understand why. It was his decision. He made it and since you're left, you get to deal with it.

..... I almost know how you feel, there.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...I want to talk to him. Then punch him.

It's hard. Getting close.

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[browning-baby.livejournal.com]

Then what?

Yeah. It is. Trust people, not knowing if things will turn out bad.

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[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Then I'm gonna get his ass drunk.

And not sure if they can cope with whatever shit you have in your head.