22... just been thinking

[atouchofstrife]

Three hours twenty-five minutes... much better. Nice match, Anita.

So what did you think of LOVELESS, Lestat? Ready to agree with Yuffie or argue against her points?

Does anyone know if this place has a working postal office or is everything usually through the Network?


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I've been talking a lot more to people here than back home. Telling them things that I just can't say. Maybe it is because here people just don't seem to know as much about ShinRa and Mako and the Lifestream. Explaining it makes me open to saying more than to those who know about it.

But still... the dreams. Seeing Zack again, walking away like that to his death, over and over again is bad. But when it's when I found him, still alive enough to tell me to live for us both and then hold me... I woke up feeling his blood against my face and in my hair. Did they... I still don't understand everything that was changed in me. I still don't know why me.

I wish I could talk to him. Just sit on his grave and just talk. Even if he can't talk back, it makes me feel... less alone.
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Comments

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

That would be under the assumption your hit actually caused me pain.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

True.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

I have been through far worse. I can assure you of that.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

By virtue of age?

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Actually, no. Though, I was older than most humans with the first incident.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Lucky.

Sometimes I really wonder the purpose behind bad shit happening to people. If someone out there thinks it's funny or something.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

The first one was because Claudia was furious with me and desired to kill me. The second as well actually.

Unless we would consider my change the first. Then those would be the second and third.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...How old were you when you were changed?

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

I was twenty-one.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...Sixteen.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Sixteen?

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

That's how old I was.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

Mm. Young. I believe Armand was a similar age when he was changed. Claudia, far younger.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, I think being young makes it harder to adapt.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

So I learned when I changed a five-year-old girl.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

...That sounds far too young for immortality.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

It was to tie Louis to my side...

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Did it work?

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

For a time.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Then she grew up?

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

A child changed into a vampire cannot age.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

Aging has nothing to do with growing up.

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

She attacked me and tried to kill me.

[cloudsinstrife.livejournal.com]

What happened after?

[vampbratprince.livejournal.com]

I came back and with Louis' help they tried to kill me again.